the first day at pulau langkawi o...:P

erm....today's 28-09-08...
quite a interesting and exciting day... we took around 2 hours to reach pulau langkawi by boat..
very very bad luck that i "terpicik" something smelly when i was in the house... BAD LUCK............
but this didnt effect any of my mood for the trip... we rent iswara car for two days.... cost around rm 80...
for our first day...haha...what to say... quite a strange situation for us that we took around 1 and the half hour to reach our hotel.. awana poto malai... really quite far away from the jety that we reached... but the outlook of the hotel not too bad seem it was three star enough.. got " fu gui" fish around the hotel... really look "gao gui" and pretty... after we checked in, we started our journey.. the first situation was "telaga tujuh"..which looked pretty with the view... but it couldnt compare with the "waterfall" at miri which i ever visited when i was in form 5... haha...
becoz of the weather didnt allow us to go visit the beach... as i known, got white sand beach... and black sand beach.. really wish to see it... and take back the sand as memorable things... we ate our lunch at "fei ma jia xiang cai"... really worth and yummy.. the most weird thing was the tauke nion was "FU CHOW"....my mu yu... she suddenly shocked us with her fu chow words.. haha...we said many which ge bo ge bo one...hahahaha... quite shy shy de..

our dinner was ramadan foods... got langkawi adam balik...with jagung de.. really like it o.. just cost rm 2.50 only... while the beef burger just cost around rm 1 nia... how cheap it was?? haha...

we reached our hotel at around 9.30pm... and i very wish for the tomolo journey.... yahoo...
need wake up at around 6pm o..haha... hopefully can o...:P
today trip let me memorize and learned many things...

we can choose how we live? either happy or sad?
we should appreciate any chance that we have... coz the chance maybe just once for whole life...
we should learn to tolerante with each others..so that anything can be beautiful...

i think it's time for me to sleep le.. or really cant wake up on time le...
ah bui, i dont want wait u le...hahaha...who asked ur mouth too bad...:P :P

history of my 20th of birthday....

today's 23-08-08..
three days before, the night before my holiday, i was waiting for the greeting... is it stupid action? haha..for this year, he was not the first ppl who greeted me.. as what i wish for the last few year.. however, it's lucky that he still remembered my birthday.. this was the things that i felt happy for.. seem i knew he may very busy with his preparation for the starting of the studies.. but my heart still hoped that he can remember my big day..be the first one as what he had promised last year.. but the result not as i hoped.. felt a little bit disappointed of it.. haha..but time will let it pass de... wish next year..the result will as what i hoped for...

around a week that we not chat le...:( misconcept of time... i felt unsuit with the situation...

erm... for my birthday, i felt happy seem many of friends remembered it...and greet me.. even matrix friends, old classmates, classmates...they all greeted me.. felt happy when i received the wishes from them... however, still a part of my friends forgot le..haha.. a little bit sad sad nia... haha... i received various presents from them.. although not as many as last year.. but still happy of it... got small fan, tabung, chocolates, vitagen, and one more funny one, sanitary...( from my cute and funny friends) hahahaha....

today's tuesday, i went pasar malam... bought iced-blended black currant flavour o.. and two jackets, 1 shirt, 1 pair of shoes, a belt... used around rm 150..i count it roughly....
after back from there, felt nothing... start to feel low mood ..nothing to do at all...donno... donno...


waiting... waiting..this's what i can do now... i will keep doing it....
waiting for my next plan for holiday.. langkawi trip...:P

sad day.. sad!!!

that day was wednesday, 17-09-2008.
we gonna woke up early at about 6am. but finally i woke up at about 6.30pm. a little bit tired that i felt. then we went to town to take something. and then we went to eat donut. very yummy yummy. and the drink which was chocolate iced drink. ate around rm 20 more. we spent our day at the restaurant while wait the time. i felt very cold that morning. so needed to wear my red jacket in order to feel more comfortable. we did not say much about anything. but the things that i still remembered was the case being bullied. he bullied me... he was bad... he....
the time was coming near. we went to puduraya by taxi. then we waited till bus approached. around 1.30pm, the bus came. how sad i felt this time seemed i knew it would be the last time we met. the next meet would be 2 years or maybe 3 years more. but nothing else i can do to change all of this. the things i can do is support..agree..let go... coz i cannot selfish just becoz i dont want. today, got ppl said something let me think more of it. how would the situation was if i send him to airport too...? would i tight him? would i smile at him? or would i do as what my friend suggested.. bom the airport, dont let him go??? the answer maybe the first one or second or neither one of them... but i start to regret that i never send him for the last day.. even one hug i also satisfied..at least i can be the last one he saw before he went... :(:(

today was 19-09-08...
we had our schooling till 12.15pm... after that we walked back to hostel as soon as possible in order to save time for our preparation to the town at 1pm... i took my bath when i reached room at hostel... without wasting any time, i wore my clothes and prepared to go out...
ya..1pm was approached... we took taxi to the bank and took money...then i accompanied my sister to go the "hua yue"... we took about half an hour to reach there... actually we planned to go ipoh parade to eat kopitiam de.. but nobody was willing to accompany me.. finally we decided to eat around the shop there.. we ate ngai choi gai... still ok.. then we jiu back le..
nothing special happen.. after took my bath, i online till now lor... waiting...waiting... waiting...
this is what i can do now...:( :(
that's all for tonite.. i may offline at 12pm le....good nitez everybody...

my first blOg...^^

finally i made my blog.. maybe through this blog, i can express my feeling and my daily life..
donno now what feeling should i have seem the day is coming near soon.. the story that i thought about today really quite hurt me till now.. just time really can cure everything.. the hurt was not as deep as the begining that i felt.. and sometimes when i'm lonely i will think either will that things happen again or not.. how should i do if it happens again? can i be calm or relax? or still under-controlled? nobody can know or ever predict.. am i think nonesense? maybe..:P

now what feeling should i have to face the day of "li bie" soon? maybe i will feel happy coz he further his studies..maybe i will feel very sad becoz he gonna leave us..maybe i will wondering or worry many things..maybe i will feel "xin teng" coz he seem like need to "shou ku" for such a long period...maybe i will always missing..maybe nobody with me to celebrate my birthday or even some occasion..maybe maybe maybe....maybe many things will happen.... erm..what am i thinking now?? instead of having my usual daily life, nothing else can do.. just can always pray for his safety, his studies, his health and everything...
the sweet memory always deeply in my mind.. but according to the time going, how many else can i clearly remember? i also donno...i appreciate everything that i have with u now... how to say? long time not wrote the journal..no idea of it le.. let talks other...>>>

last few days i quite understand one thing.. is it the ppl who "dan chuan" always being bullied by others? i just knew about my friend's zhao yu.. thinking of her, i'm started to think of myself.. how bad a guy was if he cant even help u and let u to undergo the "wei qu"? without action, evertything is meanless... the words through mouth never effective at all... so stop to say say nia...useless at all without action... the action like close eyes always must be strongly banned...