dAYs at my sweet home...

today i already taste my golok mee, kampua, bui nuk...and many more... chicken soup with so mian... mooncake and so on.. haih~~gonna eat too much le.. my keep fit plan gonna failed le ar...:(
this time i have lots of assignment.. a lorry of it...:( too many many ar... ngong diao... ~~~

tomolo is my pbs day..(pengalaman berasaskan sekolah) at methodist school... :)
quite ok de... this time i not felt such nervous or worry le... maybe had experience before... :)
but i still hope everything goes smooth and good... must gan ba teh...

i should take time to enjoy myself... seem now gonna near 21 years old le.. few weeks more... :(
time really pass fast... :( but sometime i hope it past fast soon... i wish to have my own life and family... :) excited... haha... unpredictable... :)

quite a bad luck day...

tonight i just realize that i had lost my maybank atm card...:( when my friend seek my help to book the air ticket... sien~~ even when i lost it, i had no idea for it.. :( nearly whole room i searched for, but never found it.. :( maybe i should make the decision to block it...:(
SiLLy tHIngS...>>>>>>>>>
due to the hot day, i bathed for many times, i think around 3 times before i sleep.. when i took my bath, i had made a silly things which i misundertaken my face foam as my "ubat gigi" and used it to brush my tooth... damn ngong...~~ huh...huh... huh....
when ones' bad luck, really felt that everything around her are not in proper manner...
yesterday, quite a busy and sien day also... my printer sok sok de... and i needed to make some useless things.. even didnt have enough time to take my dinner... :(

and yesterday night, i failed to fall asleep... whole night was awake... huh... donno what's the reason? but the thing was just happenned on me... :(

tonight i must sleep well and have a sweet dream.. this's what i promise to myself... :)
when the bad things were keep happening on me, i should let everything pass quickly, change my mood and thinking to undergo new second, new day and new life...

the things i still able to do for myself are care myself more, love myself more and think myself more... never hope or wish others' can give u more.... because this's hard than u ask others' to give u help...
The things i asked for are easy, simple and proper...if u think it u cant do it or handle it as well, we should decide what's suitable for us... :(

and i should not misunderuse my face foam as my colgate...NGonG...:P

moodless day....

today i woke up quite early just in order to find some information for my assignment and presentation.. the reason was because the line's more good in early of the morning.. seldom people used it...
i had my spiritual cereal drink with my wholemeal bread and some biscuits.. quite a cold day.. because last night was raining heavily.. besides, the sun had been hidden by clouds... :P
i prefer the weather like this instead of hot day... because not need explore to the sun... i hate sunlight cause it would make my skin look more dark.. :P

after took drink, i started to search for my needed information.. then, i printed flight information.. after got the lesson from the past, it wont happen anymore.. i would be more alerts... just like the event of my purse... :)

but, what's a bad printer which had wasted my valuable time.. it's getting problem.. luckily after half an hour, finally i success cure its problem by cleaning the catridge... how clever am i?? :P

after that, i started to watch movie by relaxing... :) but not more exciting movie for me to watch.. i just can choose some common movie to watch just in virtue to spend the time... how bored i felt?
suddenly, my handphone's ringing.. i just received his message.. now i just realize waiting and waiting can become meaningless... slowly... waiting wont bring any meaningful to me...
how come someone will forget to reply me even that someone knew i'm waiting? haih~~
play should have a limit... enjoy should have a limit... even the excuse should have a limit...
forgot is the best answer to passing all the limit... :(

actually i tried to accept all of this... but just sometime i still felt angry.. eh.. not.. is mad... cause why could i face all of this but he never think to change..? sometimes i angry.. then nothing le.. let it be.. not represent i not care... just i more care ur feeling... then sometimes i let it be...
but why dont u care my feeling? and dont keep repeating it?? am i ask more from it?
i can choose to mai hiu u.. but i think it will make both of us feeling unhappy.. so, i tried to use other method... let it..let it...
or i can choose to treat u so... but i wont do so.. cause i know what's the bad feeling u will feel if i treat u so.. so, i never like to "yi ya huang ya"...


maybe u will think it small case... maybe just gals will think much of this... because they more care how's their bf care them, treat them, love them... this's the best answer to answering all the Q appeared in ur mind..

maybe after i wake up tomolo morning, i forgot all of this le... cause usually i like to express my mood or feeling or thinking through blog, cause i will forget all of the bad things that ever happenned... :)

ok lor...good nitez... i will be better soon.. :)

"Nan Guo" de yi tian...Thinking.....

erm.. today's july of 7.. all things like usual.. having class, taking nap, watching movie, colouring.. and add one new >thinking..
i would like to think clearly.. what i want actually from it? is there possible to get "wei qu" from it? for the first time, i could think it as careless mistake..but if continuosly, i should think it as mistakes which had done without thinking to change.. the one who more care others' feeling and opinion than u, it enough to evident that u are not important and even spaceless in somewhere.. i dont like to make myself in dilemma, so i choose to tolerante, let it.. when the things keep on happening, i just realise that tolerante wont solve the problem or recover the situation..
i always try to stand in ur situation or stand to think, but u never even try to do so for me..
when u need time for other activity or plan, i will just let it coz i know u long time not play and enjoy with friends.. or u can just broke ur promise becoz u need to accompany friends at outside... this doesnt a big matter or problem for me.. coz i know u need enjoy and play with them..
but, why i never felt like u can stand in my point of view?
the thing happenned for first time, apologize is effective and could let other to accept that maybe's ur mistake.. but apologize without changing, is more hurt becoz people believe it wont happen next time and not keep happening...
if u wish other to understand u, u need take time and care more for her... never think that she should understand u becoz u have been so long with her... time without experienced together is count nothing... interact less mean know less...
responsible is important.. the words or promise u had said should be fullfilled.. becoz this's what u promised... never play play with the somethings that girls think it seriously..

after i express all this, i also think will there possible for me to think it so much or complicated? maybe i dont know the answer.. but i just knew if always keep everything in ur heart or hide it somewhere, it will let u feel even more painful or make the situation worst...

i choose to let everything in clear so others can understand my feeling, thinking and condition..
everything would be clear if u say out everything.. never expect others can guest or understand becoz we are just human...

maybe after few days or weeks, when i look back this blog, maybe i will feel weird why i would write such content for my blog.. becoz this's what happenned for my past blogs.. :)

i believe everything would be ok, fine coz i believe life will always like weather's changing... :)

mY loNELY dAys...

after three weeks short holidays, i need to face my schooling days with low mood... why other Uni liFe students have more holidays than us? not fair at all.. :)
for my three week holidays, i enjoyed it much.. many activities that had done such as playing badminton, jogging and eating...
the holidays too short.. and everything is in unwell manner...
haih~~
sometime girls will think much than boys because they would like spend more time with bf.. but boys are different, they usually like to spend the days with friends.. maybe that's the reason why girls will think much than the boys..
girls like the feeling being care so they will always complain when there is less care from bf.. actually simple care or simple console will let girls feel happy and positive in thinking.. girls are easily to be fullfilled..
but usually boys forget to care much for their gf.. when one relationship more long, it will totally need knowledge to maintain.. because they will feel like "u should understand this and that".. but would they ever think even a plant also need the long term of water, nutritious and care from the owner? "gen he kuan"there is a relationship.. :)

different perception different thinking...

i admit that i have changed a lot when the relationship is growing.. from childish to mature..
if the things cant even come to proper manner, maybe there is the problem occur between us.. from the interaction of two weeks, i slowly realize ur big pi qi, bad tempered... i admit that i cant handle or face ur pi qi as well... the thing happen at the eye of the malaysia, i believe there will be the repeated events... if we really cant have a balance ruler, maybe we should discuss what can there be for the best solution... :( because something is for forever, if cant, we should make proper solution early... i appreciate all this...

friendship forever...

maybe i'm the one who like to straight for my feeling, words and action... but now i start to think that it's not necessary for me to keep it in a big society...
sometimes i felt myself too stubborn... why not just take it easy?? maybe i should start to learn to do it...
communication between friends needs a big knowledge... we should tolerant to each other to avoid any quarrel or misunderstanding...
earth is too big... but we meet it by chance..why don't we try to appreciate the chance that giving by GOD?? before this, i not really know to evaluate this statement.. but start today, i have learn to be more tolerant and always lend a hand to those that need us....
before i wrote this blog, i was in mad and aggressive, but now i success to make myself calm down.. think back of what we were having before this... is that worth for me to care so much??
maybe sometime my words hurt someone without realize, just hope to say apologize to them.. i said so because i appreciate the friendship that we ever had... the chance that had given by GOD...
hopefully GOD can always besides me, support me and help me... May GOD bless all of us...
thanks... ^^

today is thurday...wrote before o_O ming ming..

now i felt quite tired..just finished with my packaging of bag... prepare to go kl tomolo to spend my weekend.. after that, we will go genting highland on saturday... quite a fully weekend... i plan to buy many many many things.. but this time i need to make my budget.. "think before buy"... who asked me waste a lot at jusco's sale last few days... anyway, i will still enjoy my shopping and eating... i plan to buy babe milo's purse, schoolbag, most probably my formal clothes and skirts, pretty blouse somemore, shoes and many many more... the most important is enjoy the delicious food at "food and tea" at kl...
friday, i will down kl to shopping first...then the next day, i will go genting highland to play whole day... then down kl..and on sunday, plan to go cameron o...(this's still in considering) either stay at kl till monday or go cameron till monday... depend on mood at that moment...
still around one week, the semester holiday is approaching... quite excited for the holiday and my PBS(pengalaman berasaskan sekolah)... i want to eat mee kampua at jpj there, golok mee at yi fa, nasi lemak and mee goreng at yee sing, laksa king at wen wen's cafe, sugarbun, and kueh tiao soup at Rong guan's cafe..and my "hua seng tang" and "tauhu hua" at market there.. and many many more...haih~~gonna become ah bui again.. make new record on my history... 51kg to 56kg? ohhh no... better 51-52kg enough le... must make a strong determination on it... 52kg..
i want eat cake..blueberry cake..yam cake... many satay donut... see....why the food i liked must be in katagoried of high calories foods o..? ngong...:)

after this semester holiday, my exam also will be around.. quite a short and busy sem.. hopefully everything can be smooth and nice as what i wish for... :P

i wish everything will be in good and sweet manner..as long as we appreaciate of what we had.. and try hard to maintain it... sure GOD will beside us always...:) Gan BA teH,YA... the future will be brighter as we thought...

staRtiNG my U life again...

after cny, i need to take my time for my studies lo.. need to be concentrate... need to struggle... and need to strive hard... in order to follow it... my subject have>> falsafah pendidikan malaysia, tamadun islam dan asia, perkembangan kanak-kanak, prasekolah1 &2, english, kokurikulum... i need to sit exam for all of this papers... haih~~ no wonder how am i going to face... ( gan ba teh lo..)

around one month more, i will back my hometown again for my holiday and PBS( pengalaman belajar di sekolah) which is more challenge that i think... i felt excited but also felt afraid that i cant handle it as well... ( hopefully god will always besides me... and protect me to let all the things are going smoothly...) i like challenge coz it always let ppl to grow more mature and wiser...

and i target to buy a "PSP" and " DIGITAL CAMERA"... camera for my assignment... and psp for my leisure time... need save money lou... when just can i buy them... i wish to go kl also.. now wait suitable timing and suitable person to accompany me...

hope everything will be smooth as i wish.... be STRONG and ToUGH... Gan ba teh...ping ping...

bad bad CNY..BAD....

today quite busy..till 7 i just getting free.. took my bath... and have a rest there..
start to feel lonely..nobody that i can refer to... becoz i not wish to be anybody's burden.. tired to say... just can say if he felt that i was his burden, let him felt unhappy, i have no idea for that.. just felt so sad... the things i always do count nothing... one sentence of words can all denied my effort.. felt disappointed...sien~~ angry angry o.. how mad or angry i for, i always process my words so not more than limited... now he said i should find new??????????

why he can always say something out before thinking it properly..? although there maybe whose fault or even my fault, he should not say so.. should care of ur girl's feeling... BASIC THING.. maybe i was not enough... to let someone feel worth to do so..

haih~~donno how to say say le... huh... always let it let it... Ok le...
he should say something to me again.. or just LET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

nEw yEaR nEw LIfe nEw tHinkinG NeW EnjOy...

2009..... is coming le.... i become old again...:( wanna 21 years old le... felt bad...:(
need to say goodbye to 2008.... still around 4 years to finish my studies... quite long or can say it quite short... maybe after wake up from sleeping, everything can be gone too fast....
many things can be different everyday after wake up...
anything unhappy or sad event, all can be passed easy... just depend on one's thinking...
this year 2009, still around 362 days to go... hope everyday can be the happy day and enjoyable day... my wish for new year 2009, is wish ah bui can get all his things or studies smooth and my relationship can always be sweet and happy till endless... and my studies all can be smooth and enjoy o...:P and can always stay pretty and can even more slim slim...
and let me have the best determination to keep fit...50kg...my target.. must keep it before cny...
yeah yeah...now 51kg... must keep it...:P