my first blOg...^^

finally i made my blog.. maybe through this blog, i can express my feeling and my daily life..
donno now what feeling should i have seem the day is coming near soon.. the story that i thought about today really quite hurt me till now.. just time really can cure everything.. the hurt was not as deep as the begining that i felt.. and sometimes when i'm lonely i will think either will that things happen again or not.. how should i do if it happens again? can i be calm or relax? or still under-controlled? nobody can know or ever predict.. am i think nonesense? maybe..:P

now what feeling should i have to face the day of "li bie" soon? maybe i will feel happy coz he further his studies..maybe i will feel very sad becoz he gonna leave us..maybe i will wondering or worry many things..maybe i will feel "xin teng" coz he seem like need to "shou ku" for such a long period...maybe i will always missing..maybe nobody with me to celebrate my birthday or even some occasion..maybe maybe maybe....maybe many things will happen.... erm..what am i thinking now?? instead of having my usual daily life, nothing else can do.. just can always pray for his safety, his studies, his health and everything...
the sweet memory always deeply in my mind.. but according to the time going, how many else can i clearly remember? i also donno...i appreciate everything that i have with u now... how to say? long time not wrote the journal..no idea of it le.. let talks other...>>>

last few days i quite understand one thing.. is it the ppl who "dan chuan" always being bullied by others? i just knew about my friend's zhao yu.. thinking of her, i'm started to think of myself.. how bad a guy was if he cant even help u and let u to undergo the "wei qu"? without action, evertything is meanless... the words through mouth never effective at all... so stop to say say nia...useless at all without action... the action like close eyes always must be strongly banned...